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I have been toying with the idea of taking a break from MOG for awhile. Why, because after 370 + posts I felt like there is nothing new under the sun to talk about.
Of course I know that's not entirely true. There is always something else to discuss even if it's as mundane as what I had for lunch today. BTW I had a gyro with extra tzatziki sauce, extra onion, and no tomato. Grill the pita hard so there is a crisp to it. When I say the 'usual' Tsam and Johnny know how I like it. They deliver and I am in heaven for the 40 minutes it takes to chow down my favorite fruit. 40 minutes cause there is a lot of conversation that comes with eating at Tsam's place. It's the joint the Bethlehem motorcycle cops like to eat at as well as the local Greek Orthodox priests.
Toss in the sweet treat that doesn't get served to the other customers and isn't on the menu and now you have culinary bliss at my local Greek eatery.
When I'm not clogging the arteries with Greek food I am enjoying sushi at the Fairgrounds with Frank Fan. Frank has been making sushi for 37 years. He popped my raw fish cherry with the buttery goodness of white fin tuna about 8 years ago and I haven't looked back. When I eat there it's good conversation and a lot of bowing that never gets old. I always walk away with the latest Pocky for the kids. To this day Frank's 'dragon roll' is the standard to which I hold other sushi's to. Watching him do his thing is always a delight. Sometimes I get my hands in there and help him during the lunch rush when I have time. Believe it or not I can roll seaweed with the best of them.
So anyway I am going to put the kibosh on the the politics for a bit and focus on the life I have and the people who make it worth living. 'My Hometown' posts have suffered during the presidential campaign and I want to get back to some of the things that help you understand me more. Comments be damned, I am who I am and that isn't going to change.
The 'I am' you have come to know and love is back in action and I am not going anywhere.
Give it up for Friday and all it's Funky glory.
This one goes out to a buddy of ours. One of his favaroite bands.
What can I say I'm a sap for good friends.
Enjoy your Friday.
We all have currents that run within us. Some currents drive our creativity, some lend motion to feelings of empathy and anger. These forces that shape us as individuals come from just about everything we do. It boggles my mind to think of the things we put into our hand baskets of personality. I could explain my belief about the great connectedness of life and how 'beingness' is simply a form of immortality that goes beyond the memories of days now past that is subject to evolution like the species that populate our Earth.
"I've known rivers:
I've known rivers ancient as the world and older than the flow of human blood in human veins.
My soul has grown deep like the rivers."
Langston Hughes, 'The Negro Speaks Of Rivers' 1920
In a nutshell, Everything you can 'do' either makes an addition in one column or places a deficeit in another. By incredibly small and sometimes large increments we grow and 'do' into to the people we are right now. You can't stop it. It just happens.
All this isn't to say the person you are can't be directed in some way. Humans are amendable. If we choose a path for ourselves we will look for favorable conditions. I think we naturally try to reinforce (make an addition) our lives by choosing activities that offer the least resistance for what we already believe.
Hey, you know where I'm coming from. If you don't, we can hash that out in comments. Can you tell I'm in a contemplative mood?
I've been thinking (like you haven't heard me say that before). I was thinking about my whiteness and the shame that rides with it.
With a last name like Heilman there is a built in prejudice towards race superiority, honestly it is a curse for me. Just saying 'Heil' brings to mind darker times in our collective history. What can I say, I didn't pick it, it just happened. That's not me at all, still having the name has defined me as a person. I have to work a little harder than the Smiths and Joneses to display my path and how I feel.
What can I say? The current of race and it's effects on me have been overwhelming as of late.
Thank you Troy. I feel like have a debt to repay, let's hope it is good enough.
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"In a nutshell, Everything you can 'do' either makes an addition in one column or places a deficeit in another."
The question is, are you ready for the audit?
I stand by my balance sheet. I can regret the things I do to some extent but I don't, I am who I am.
No debt to repay here, my man. We've all been the victim and the perpetrator at some point, brother. ;)
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right on brother. I agree that the the election has taken time from us all that we'll never get back.
what is it with you and the threatening to leave this joint? I can relate, though. Sometimes I think about taking a break too. Lately I've barely been here as it is. Life and stuff.
Looking forward to I Am cranking the posts old-school!
My heart skips a beat every time you talk of leaving. Glad you have once again decided to stay.